Been an interesting time of reconsolidation and creation. This time of year is always a time of drawing within and focusing on reorganizing self and space. Some people do "spring cleaning"..mine always begins starting August-ish, and culminates in a plan of sorts by the end of October. That for me is the beginning of the harvesting of the old goals and the re-evaluation and resetting of goals for the upcoming cold season and into the summer.
I have reclaimed relearning a language that I walked a…
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Added by Francine on November 7, 2009 at 2:34pm —
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The brain does strange things at 4am. I guess, with all the things that have happened in the last 2 years, its made me really start looking at things differently.. so, yet again, another take on the world in my head. I wonder, where's all that youthful exhuberence and passion I remember having. I seem to have lost it along the way. I remember when everything mattered, A LOT. I rememeber knowing what I wanted and how exactly I was going to achieve it. I remember this feeling of hyper awareness an…
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Added by Francine on September 4, 2009 at 12:17pm —
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I sometimes wonder, at odd moments at work, or sitting reading a book ect.... where our thoughts and fears some from. Ok, I know, some fears make sense: IF you've been bitten by a dog, you might be nervous or afraid of dogs. IF you've almost drowned, then fear of open water makes sense. These are more about fears that don't seem to make any sense, and thoughts that seem to come out of nowhere from the point of view of logic. Ok, so that's the basis of "irrational" fears and "irrational" thoughts…
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Added by Francine on August 8, 2009 at 3:30pm —
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I have no idea how things are going to shift. It is beyond me how things are going to change, but I knew that they will. It is certainly that there are a lot of transitions and transformations in the wind right now. It seems impossible, but there are so many changes since Dad Passed in nove. Mom, and her learning how to live on her own. Me keeping my balance, both of us moving, raising kids, trying to carve out time for myself to be able ot create, one row at a time if need be. I know, new job,…
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Added by Francine on August 4, 2009 at 1:59am —
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Well, I'm part of 4or 5 groups here, and i've had a REALLY tough time getting time with any of them recently...I have been doing some writing still.. lots of snippets in bunches. I've also got a programme on my memory stick that is working well to keep the extra snips and the journal entries going, since i seem to be doing better typing lately than writing.
I haven't gotten very far on my "go for the goal"..but I am spinning, so hopefully the yarn that is currently being created with go to one o…
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Added by Francine on July 26, 2009 at 8:30pm —
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OK, So I've had my ups and downs over the last several months, but not to the point where I've lost a full night's sleep over it. I think the reality of the new position hit me last night. Yesterday was the first day of training the new person to do my old job. It was going fine, and I did my new job for a while yesterday and it seemed all fine and dandy. Then something snapped in me last night. I don't know exactly what's wrong with me, but I can't stop tearing up, and I can't let go of the fac…
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Added by Francine on July 21, 2009 at 12:35pm —
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Well, on top of everything else, I've been offered a new position in the same building. I have tentatively accepted it, but I have some grave misgivings about whether or not I will be able to manage physically. I know, it sounds so strange to be saying that. It means no more lifting at all, and little or not carrying. I will be directing drivers, dispatching orders and organizing pickers and making sure parts get put away. Sounds like a walk in the park compared to the constant lifting and totin…
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Added by Francine on July 15, 2009 at 3:17am —
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Well looky here.. I think I'm starting to make some progress. Move is mostly behind us, and we are getting to the point of being settled in the new digs. I haven't managed to start the basement yet.. that is a full weekend's work and then some, other than that, rooms are mostly useable and comfortable... still not much as far as art supplies available because they are all in the basement ... stacked and hidden... which is fine.. they will come to light, maybe this weekend. All that being said, d…
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Added by Francine on July 10, 2009 at 5:42pm —
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I know, I know, we all do it...that darned critic is always in the back of our heads: "what makes you think YOU can do THAT"... "Who says you're 'allowed' to be artistic, much less an "artist" ? " I guess I've known it for a while, but I really am my own worst enemy sometimes, especially when it comes to art-ing and art endeavours... actually, a lot of things over my life, but in art just at the moment. I've been known to recklessly put things "out there" that I knew were substandard, only becau…
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Added by Francine on June 30, 2009 at 5:29pm —
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Well.. in spite of being quite sure that I wouldn't survive, I have! We are now moved and slowly getting settled. We have beds, places to put clothes, a kitchen to cook in, a dining room to eat in, a living room that's almost livable, puter, and tv. I also have acquired a new to me van that is much safer to drive and be in than the old one, and maybe things are finally shaking loose after a really rough almost 19 months. I can't do too much creatively as far as the spinning or weaving yet, as th…
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Added by Francine on June 27, 2009 at 5:35pm —
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I will admit, as I go through my own meanderings, and read the kind and supportive responses to my musings... I saw a the preview to a new series coming up on the telly about hoarders. I have come to the conclusion, that while I do have clutter, and I have moments of holding on to thing too long or that "might be useful later" ... that I have nothing on some of the people. I cannot even imagine living the way some of them do. Narrow paths running through waist and sometimes shoulder high stacks…
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Added by Francine on June 10, 2009 at 7:31pm —
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In the whole process of this move, and blending old and new, I have been having a challenge trying to fit all the stuff I had, and all the stuff I was being gifted into a space that is smaller than I had before. It seems somehow, that over time, inspite of myself, that I have acquired more than I need or ever wanted. I was discussing this with a friend who is currently living and teaching in South Korea, and he forwarded a link to an article that he thought would be useful: Its called "The Joy o…
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Added by Francine on June 9, 2009 at 5:20pm —
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Well, I'm here, kinda. The world has been rather in chaos over the last while. There has been focusing on my mom's needs with settling my dad's estate, and getting her to a point where she was willing to sell the house and the boat, and then going through all of the legal issues which she has never had to deal with. In addition, we are having to deal with all the emotional issues of going through his belongings and papers and keeping what's important and getting rid of what isn't.
With everythin…
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Added by Francine on May 28, 2009 at 3:25pm —
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Well, working on it, every so slowly. Dragging my behind out of the mire that has been around me, and, I suppose through me and stuck to me. Pain has been a pretty constant companion over the last while. The new meds are helping some, but I think there's been some 'body adjustment' to them going on... as well as the mental and emotional stuff that comes with all the events of the last several months.
I am slowly managing to get my household cleared, as, on top of everything else, I am also worki…
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Added by Francine on April 22, 2009 at 2:03am —
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to all my friends.. i am sorry that i have gone AWOL. LIfe has taken another opportunity to throw me a curve ball, and i'm trying to keep my head above water. To all that I owe emails ect to.. I'm sorry..i will write as soon as i can... please be patient..its not a lack of wanting..its a lack of time and focus..
sorry again..
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Added by Francine on March 24, 2009 at 10:15am —
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http://ca.news.yahoo.com/s/afp/090227/world/science_britain_doodle_offbeat
Doodling can help memory recall: research
LONDON (AFP) - Far from being a waste of time, doodling can make a boring presentation or speech easier to memorise, according to research published on Friday.
Scribbling is normally taken to signify boredom and a short attention span, but a new study at Plymouth University has shown that doodling while listening actually helps memory recall.
Volunteers given a doodling task w…
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Added by Francine on February 27, 2009 at 3:27pm —
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WOW.. well.. not sure how to react here... got some papers ect from my dad...Have thought a LOT about him since his passing at the end of november... and its been tough at times. I have also been working through VOG slowly. I will admit to taking it far slower through the Kingdom of Story than I would like, but I think its because there is a lot buried in there. Some revelations about self for sure...and about the voice of the Inner Critic that I hadn't been aware of.
Somewhere in that VOG there…
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Added by Francine on February 21, 2009 at 11:54am —
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Well, back to this :p Being told to write, and it is the same old story....the one that I have had idea to write for many years now. Was meandering through a few of my journals and came across a book that I had started that self same story in many many years ago. I knew it had been an idea for a long time, but.. WOW..its been almost 20 years. Guess its about time!! No idea but have decided to try and follow through this time... I hope. The whole notion if rather overwhelming, but I've decided to…
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Added by Francine on February 14, 2009 at 9:00pm —
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Its kind of amazing what one can discover about one's self in the dark and quiet of the early morning while staring at the ceiling.... This morning was one of those mornings: You know the ones.. You wake up far earlier than you need to, and try as you might, you just can't go back to sleep. You lay there gazing through the dark eyes wide open, tossing and shifting pillows trying to get back to sleep for that last hour before the alarm will be going off, all to no avail. Your brain is wide awake…
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Added by Francine on February 11, 2009 at 11:42am —
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I guess I've been going through stuff in my head lately. Even though I haven't actively been moving forward in the VOG per se, I have had it percolating in my brain. The whole issue of not having a lot of conscious memory from my younger days has rather put a crimp in what I can do to create my personal story/myth... that, and comments from Frank in his thoughts have put me in a position to contemplate what I would create. If I had no previous memory at all. If I woke up remember almost nothing,…
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Added by Francine on February 10, 2009 at 4:14pm —
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