VOG ..A journey back to self...

[Francine]

I'm going to start puttting progress notes here. Morning pages have been going on for a couple of days, I went to a local antiques shop as my mini date/ daily walk. I am still recovering from my back injury of a year ago, and walking in -15C weather is NOT my friend, so, given that its about "gathering images" I blended the 2.. a vigourous walk around the shop's interior, and then a slow meander through the aisles and digging into corners where something caught my eye.
Wonderful to be able to allow myself to take the time, especially with all that has been going on. Since sometimes walking can be an issue, I am not sure what I might be able to substitute for that. If the point it to create a rhythmic cadance to allow the brain to disconnect, then maybe spinning would be ok. With its double treadle action, it mimics the action of walking without any stress on my back. Have to think about that one;)
Good luck to all of us.. and thank you to all for the mutual support

[Francine]

I wish I could do some of these. I do have a few, sporadic memories from some of those times, but for the most part, for some reason, I just don't seem to be able to connect with most of those times in my life. I am sure they happened, but I can't seem to find them. I'm discovering though, that its ok. I'm creating me in the way I want to be, not the way I might have been, so in some ways, not having those memories aren't a bad thing.
I focus on being grateful to the people in my life who support me and who I would choose and what I am choosing and release the rest to the Universe to deal with. Because I journal so consistantly, I keep a journal that has all of the things i feel i need to remember..

[Carol@Swallowcliffs]

Francine: Have you reread the journals to see what positive "threads" you can build ?

[Francine]

hi carol,
Sorry I didn't respond to this at the time. I had completely backed away from all of it, but I have, since the move started to go through some of the journals and have found a few of those positives... I have forgotten a lot of what happened in those times, so its been interesting to start that journey again. I never expected to read any of them again, but now that I am rejourneying, i am also reclaiming some of the things that gave me so much strength.

[Barbara Ann Storrier]

Sounds intriguing, Francine, revisiting some of the journaling from the past. I know life can really feel chaotic during a move ... it takes me a while to get my groove back afterward. I bet the "rejourneying and reclaiming" will help :)

[Francine]

Been a while since I've been willing to walk this journey. I think among all the other "reclaiming" I've been doing, I think its time to revisit this one in earnest.. I have been so unwilling to open that kettle of worms. I have been too afraid to open those doors. Time to get the skeletons out. I'm strong enough to move forward.

[Francine]

Been working on a lot of spinning and more creative stuff. Its been a positive time with me, and very open.